week 30

wow, i am grateful for good insurance! last fall when daddy and i were talking about adding another bundle of joy to our family we decided to switch our health insurance plan. we also knew your brother needed surgery. after thinking about it a lot, playing with the numbers we felt really strongly to go with the highest plan. every time i go to a doctors office i am thankful for those feelings and that we made that decision.

{daddys dinner is on the left, it was gone before i started mine, he he.}

wow, babes only 10 more weeks and that is if we go full term. this week was a big one and we feel so blessed. the morning of your appointment started super early, getting your brothers ready for their big day at school, play dates and a sleep over. we had to get on the road early, we had to drive just over 2 hours away.

we made it in time to hit a few stores. would you be surprised if i told you i got you a few things? well i did, you are going to look so cute. i cannot pass up a good deal! you may not be able to wear some of it right away but you will grow.

so your new doctor... we made it to our appointment and were in and out of there in such a short amount of time, compared to our other doctors. guess what? he could not see any problems with your large intestine. what? we were shocked! he did see a few other things that he would like us to have watched but he said we should be ok to deliver closer to home.

the best news of all he said, your babies tummy is too small {-2%}. i really do not want you to go into preterm labor and deliver him so small. so please sit on the couch and just eat. um, say what? i have never been told that. i have always been so active in all of my pregnancies {playing basketball, snowboarding, etc.} this is the first one i have to sit around but i am not going to lie, i am going to enjoy it. yes i know i am going to have to kick my butt into high gear after you are born but it will be worth it. for now we sit and eat, especially anything dipped in chocolate... yum!

we celebrated by going to a nice dinner. the food was to die for, either that or it was because we had skipped lunch. i guess we will have to go back:)

i have talked to our specialist here and she is shocked, to say the least. we have another appointment scheduled with her at the end of this month. she wants to give it a little more time and check again.

we were told we need to deliver at a hospital about 30 min away because they have a n.i.c.u., just to be safe. our ob here only delivers at a hospital without a nicu so i can no longer go to him. i hate switching doctors but it is part of the process. i am trying to get into a doctor that is highly recommended. keep your fingers crossed {and toes} because i hear she is hard to get into.

we feel so blessed... prayers are really answered!

week 29

how much to share, how much not to share? that is always what i ask myself when writing this blog. at this moment i feel like sharing so here we go...

baby weid, it sounds so cute when your brother talks to you.

we have our appointment made with the ob specialist that is going to deliver you. it is scheduled for next week. i am nervous and excited! we are hopeful he will have more answers for us.

i/we are lucky to have your daddy, he is so mellow. something that i have really relied on, he is so good to us! this entire experience has been a roller coaster of emotions and add the fact that my hormones are going crazy... wow! i definitely have good days and bad days. days i feel on top of the world because i am carrying you and other days i just want to hide and cry. i just want answers and only time will give us that.

it has been hard from the first time we were asked how we felt about aborting you {when there were a lot of unknowns} to now. no momma should ever be asked that, it rocked my world. i have loved you from the moment we found out about you! daddy and i have felt pretty positive through out this entire experience. we were told at one point it looked like you had c.f. or d.s. and we were ok with that. in the beginning of our marriage i would tell a2 that i would love a child with special needs as i know it brings a lot of challenges but the joy and glue it can bring to the family is amazing. so i was ok with it.

daddy and i are pretty private people and have kept a lot to ourselves, i have shared with a few close friends. but that felt nice to share.

we love you little one and feel so positive it will all work out!

week 28

we met with our specialist this week, actually 2 of them this week. we feel like we got some more answers and are moving forward. for those of you with questions, this is what we know...

* our baby has a problem with his large intestines, they are dilated larger than normal and continue to get larger,
* which means there is something blocking them.
* it is a blessing i was bleeding early so they could catch this. they have been watching it closely.
* this happens in about 1/5000 births.
* we do know he will need surgery after he is born.
* we do not know how extensive it will be until he is here.
* we do not know how long the surgery takes or how long he will stay in the hospital.
* they will diagnose him in the first 24-48 hours after his birth.
* i will not be able to nurse him.
* he will be feed through an IV.

we feel blessed to have family on both sides offer to help!

we are going to meet with the pediatric surgeon, OB, and tour the hospital where we will be delivering in the next few weeks. we will need to make a few visits there before you come and it is a few hours away. we have been told they will probably induce me anywhere from 38-39 weeks.

we were able to see you in 4D this week, your brothers thought that was cool. they always love to hear your heartbeat. at your appointment your tummy measured small, barely 27 weeks. your femur bone measured almost 30 weeks. a big difference but then they looked at daddy and your brothers and said we can see it runs in the family, long and skinny. i do not include myself in that because i am not feeling so skinny. she said you weigh 2 pounds 11 ounces!

week 27

{we are going to need to update our family picture soon!}

i have been busy getting your brothers and your room into order. i have a lot to do! i like how it is keeping me busy tho. so much to paint and organize. our pile to donate to the goodwill is growing, your daddy and i love that feeling. out with the old and in with the new.

speaking of new i have found the stroller i want and a rocking chair for us. i am so excited! i am still trying to find the perfect fabric to make your bedding.

we met with your doctor this week and also talked to your pediatrician. we were told of a good pediatric surgeon in the area, i feel like we are starting to get some answers. we have another appointment next week with our specialist. so much to learn and prepare for but only time will tell.

you are in our thoughts and prayers everyday little man... momma loves you more then words can say!!!!