how much to share, how much not to share? that is always what i ask myself when writing this blog. at this moment i feel like sharing so here we go...
baby weid, it sounds so cute when your brother talks to you.we have our appointment made with the ob specialist that is going to deliver you. it is scheduled for next week. i am nervous and excited! we are hopeful he will have more answers for us.
i/we are lucky to have your daddy, he is so mellow. something that i have really relied on, he is so good to us! this entire experience has been a roller coaster of emotions and add the fact that my hormones are going crazy... wow! i definitely have good days and bad days. days i feel on top of the world because i am carrying you and other days i just want to hide and cry. i just want answers and only time will give us that.
it has been hard from the first time we were asked how we felt about aborting you {when there were a lot of unknowns} to now. no momma should ever be asked that, it rocked my world. i have loved you from the moment we found out about you! daddy and i have felt pretty positive through out this entire experience. we were told at one point it looked like you had c.f. or d.s. and we were ok with that. in the beginning of our marriage i would tell a2 that i would love a child with special needs as i know it brings a lot of challenges but the joy and glue it can bring to the family is amazing. so i was ok with it.
daddy and i are pretty private people and have kept a lot to ourselves, i have shared with a few close friends. but that felt nice to share.
we love you little one and feel so positive it will all work out!
I can only imagine how frustrating it would be not to have answers. My cousin just had a baby that doctors wanted her to abort, and although the baby did die it lived 7 more days than the doctors ever anticipated. You just never know what the Lord has in planned for you and your family. Just know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI feel POSITIVE that everything will work out too! But that doesn't mean we arent' thinking about praying lots for you and baby Reid :)
ReplyDeleteI can only imagine the amount of emotional and physical stress this has had on you. You are very lucky to have such a great strength by your side (aaron). And thank goodness you've been told to EAT that stress away!!
May you feel the Lords hand in the difficult time!
Love, Britt